In case you didn’t know

Thanks baby for sending me that song! In such a long time I haven’t been near crying and sending me this song, made me emotional. In case you didn’t know, I’m crazy about you, I love you, you mean the world to me. In case you didn’t know, I’d love to tell you I couldn’t spend my life with anyone else then with you! I found it so sweet of you coming with us today and being with my on a trip with my students! Thank you for being you!


I am sorry, I do love you…

I’m sorry I’ve been so dry lately. It seems like lately I didn’t care. I’m sorry about that. I’m sorry for not forgiving you. You truly mean a lot to me! You do so much and thank you for being there for me. You help out my mom, you help me search for my dad. When I need something you’re there. Without you my life wouldn’t be the same. From this moment on, I’ll try my best to be more thankful and love you too! I do love you! Thank you!!!

Dad I care…

Please dad, come home. We all miss you. It’s not fair how you’re treating your family. How you leave us and just don’t come home again till you want to. But I want you to know we’re praying for you. Jesus died for your sin as well! I wish you’d see that! Please change your lifestyle before it’s too late. We love you. I wish you’d see that.

I don’t know how…

I don’t know how to tell you what I feel. I how know how to start… I’ve been battling depression, I’ve been having a hard time laughing and crying. I don’t wanna feel either. I wanna Hug you but I can’t. I wanna tell you how much you mean to mean… I don’t know how… please don’t stop loving me.

The moment I stopped crying

You ask if I’m okay, and I think I am. I’m not sure but I think so. I’m sorry I’ve become so dry or am I really? I’m paying attention to you. I agree with your projects and yet you still complain I’m not completely there. Well honestly I’m not. But honestly I don’t quite know what to do. Saturday I was so sick I thought I might die, you ignored me, watched porn and masturbated. Honestly I feel betrayed. I’m sorry but I’m having a hard time. I know you’re being nice, taking me out and being everything I always wanted… but what if I had gone? That’s how much you’d have shown me how much I mean to you?

Yeah fall asleep

So you fall asleep while I have a huge fiebre yesterday because I wasn’t really nice? My body was in so much pain, I actually thought I could and might die. Never felt that before. (Thanks God that I’m able to feel a bit better today) anyways so you literally ignored and told me it seemed like I wanted nothing to do with you. I’m sorry, I didn’t feel good and you know it! Why when I’m sick you just let me be and I try so hard to always make you feel better!?!? Yeah I know you’ve been a lot sweeter today, but why can’t you do it at the moment? Or why when I try to tell you about it, you start complaining what a bad person you are. I don’t want you to hate yourself, I just need you to be there for me in times like that.